Blake

Blake, you're a grown man now, making your way

But this distance between us breaks my heart every day

I spent so many years fighting battles inside

And I know while I struggled, you had nowhere to hide

I wasn't the mother you needed back then

And I'd give anything to start over again

I can't undo the mistakes or the moments we lost

I know that my battles came at your cost

God changed my life, but I know you still carry the pain

I don't expect you to forget, and I'm not shifting the blame

I just want to spend the rest of my time on this earth

Being the mama you deserve

You're my only son, and you'll always be my baby boy

I wish love alone could bring back your joy

If I could have taken your pain away, I would have long ago

But I know that's just not how the healing goes

Now there's silence and miles stretching out in between

But you cross my mind in every prayer, in every dream

I can't undo the mistakes or the moments we lost

I know that my battles came at your cost

God changed my life, but I know you still carry the pain

I don't expect you to forget, and I'm not shifting the blame

I just want to spend the rest of my time on this earth

Being the mama you deserve

I don't want you to feel obligated to forgive

I just want to show you the way I now live

I pray that someday, when the time is right for you

You'll let me be a part of your future, too

Until then, I'll keep loving you from afar

No matter the distance, no matter where you are

'Cause I can't undo the mistakes or the moments we lost

I know that my battles came at your cost

God changed my life, but I know you still carry the pain

I don't expect you to forget, and I'm not shifting the blame

I just want to spend the rest of my time on this earth

Being the mama you deserve

I love you, son. Always have, and I always will.

Love, Mama.