kalamli

Back in Saipan, it was just a passing "hi"

Years went by, didn't know our paths would tie

Smoking, drinking in Seattle when I heard the news

Said "shoot, sounds good," didn't know what I would choose

Walked in, found you knocked out on the couch asleep

Friends joking 'round, saying I should make you freak

But I just woke you up, told you "Get some food to eat"

Instructor said to show you 'round the city streets

I thought I was boring—work, home, and the store

But changing my routine for you opened up a door.

I thought you were a bad boy, but I saw your giant heart

Protective and transparent right from the start

Fixing up the cars, putting subs in the back

But when it came to talking, communication lacked

I told you I’m all in, "Ride with you, die with you"

But you chose to let it go when the arguments grew

I gave you my loyalty, laid my feelings on the floor

And even though you hurt me, I still love you more.

You hate feeling controlled, so you just walk away

"That's your problem, not mine," is what you'd always say

Called me dramatic, insecure, said I only complain

While I was burying my hurt just to shield you from the pain

I cried out for help, but you saw it as a chore

Like I had to be perfect, no mistakes anymore

I didn't need the money, didn't need a fancy ride

Just wanted to hold your hand with our problems combined

You said you were broken, but I never tried to fix you

I just wanted Kalamli, the real man that I knew.

I thought you were a bad boy, but I saw your giant heart

Protective and transparent right from the start

Fixing up the cars, putting subs in the back

But when it came to talking, communication lacked

I told you I’m all in, "Ride with you, die with you"

But you chose to let it go when the arguments grew

I gave you my loyalty, laid my feelings on the floor

And even though you hurt me, I still love you more.

Turn it all around, put yourself inside my shoes

I didn't give my effort just to watch us lose

You brought out my true self, the whole shebang

Even through the bitter words and the doors that rang

No designer clothes, no expensive material things

I just wanted the peace that a real partnership brings

You took the easy out, gave up on the trust

But my unconditional love is still holding on to us.

I thought you were a bad boy, but I saw your giant heart

Protective and transparent right from the start

Fixing up the cars, putting subs in the back

But when it came to talking, communication lacked

I told you I’m all in, "Ride with you, die with you"

But you chose to let it go when the arguments grew

I'm still proud to say it, though you tore me apart

Kalamli, you're still the only one in my heart.