Jose

Shot for shot at grandma's house, talking in the dark

Got into the Benz, but I got sick right where we parked

You took me to the back deck, pulled my pants down in the night

Told me shhhh, just shut up, making everything feel right

We laid there snuggling close until my head was finally clear

I thought that was the start of us, but look at us right here

The promise of a wedding ring just faded in the gray

And after twelve whole years, I'm just a ghost in your way

Jose, you'll be my only one, I'll love you till I'm cold

But I'm thirty-one right now, and this is getting old

You want your playa swag at fifty, a hidden phone in the night

Choosing all those other women while I'm fading from your sight

I'm staying downstairs in the quiet, out of mind and out of view

Just waiting for the strength to pack and walk away from you

I thought a baby made us locked, unbreakable for life

But you did me dirty buying that triplet stroller, cutting like a knife

Then came the deepest pain that I could ever endure

Dying in my tears as my hair fell to the floor

I lost what made me a woman, I needed you right there

But you were laughing at a screen, you didn't even care

Now I beg you for a kiss, and you pull away your skin

Like I'm too disgusting to touch, where do I even begin?

Jose, you'll be my only one, I'll love you till I'm cold

But I'm thirty-one right now, and this is getting old

You want your playa swag at fifty, a hidden phone in the night

Choosing all those other women while I'm fading from your sight

I'm staying downstairs in the quiet, out of mind and out of view

Just waiting for the strength to pack and walk away from you

I cut off every single man who made you feel unsure

But you just wiped me off your Facebook, closing up the door

I tried to match your side pieces, tried to be your thrill

But myself is not enough for you, and I know I never will

You say don't talk about it, just do it, but I'm done playing the game

I'm bottling it all up until I leave behind this pain

Jose, you'll be my only one, I'll love you till I'm cold

But twelve broken years of lies is a heavy truth to hold

You want your freedom on the streets, your desires in the night

So I'll let you have your secrets while I fade out of your sight

I'm staying downstairs in the quiet, going numb to make it through

Just waiting for the strength to finally walk away from you