Elijah

I remember the moment they placed you in my arms

My heart was full of love, I swore to keep you safe from harm

But the sickness I was fighting pulled me in too deep

And just a few months later, I had promises I couldn't keep

I lost my way in the shadows of a heavy fight

And my addiction stole you away into the night

Oh, Elijah, I'm so sorry that I let you down

Sorry my addiction meant I couldn't be around

You've got a heart so big, so forgiving and so kind

I hate the pain I caused and the years I left behind

I never stopped loving you through every twist and curve

I just want one last chance to be the mother you deserve

When I was in rehab, I tried to bring you near

But I could see that you weren't happy staying with me here

So I made the hardest choice a mother ever had to make

I let you go to foster care, just for your own sake

But every single visit, I held onto so tight

Those special little moments were my only source of light

Oh, Elijah, I'm so sorry that I let you down

Sorry my addiction meant I couldn't be around

You've got a heart so big, so forgiving and so kind

I hate the pain I caused and the years I left behind

I never stopped loving you through every twist and curve

I just want one last chance to be the mother you deserve

You grew into an amazing man, always helping someone else

You found a way to shine despite the heavy cards I dealt

I know I disappointed you, I know I caused you pain

But I'm finally standing here, stepping out of the rain

I want to show you I can do this, that I'm finally standing tall

Even when I wasn't there, I loved you through it all

Oh, Elijah, I'm so sorry that I let you down

Sorry my addiction meant I couldn't be around

You've got a heart so big, so forgiving and so kind

I hate the pain I caused and the years I left behind

I'm asking for forgiveness, I'm finding my own nerve

Please give me one last chance to be the mother you deserve

I love you, Elijah, let me be the mother you deserve