Tayler and Geiffen

I still remember the day we brought him home

Tayler, you held Griffen, so he wouldn't feel alone

Now the years have turned, and you are daddies too

Holding your own children the way I once held you

But there's a heavy silence in the spaces in between

A wall of separation where our family used to be

I know you've drawn a line, I'm trying to accept it

But this chapter of my life, I just can't close and let it

Fade into the dark, without a chance to heal

I'm praying for forgiveness, I'm laying down my shield

I want to be a part of the lives you're building now

I love you both so much, if your hearts would just allow

You lead others to Christ, you live by the Word

Sharing the deepest mercy that anyone has heard

But it breaks my heart to see you give that grace away

While keeping me locked out, with nothing left to say

If the gospel speaks of healing and washing away the past

Why am I the only one whose punishment must last?

I know you've drawn a line, I'm trying to accept it

But this chapter of my life, I just can't close and let it

Fade into the dark, without a chance to heal

I'm praying for forgiveness, I'm laying down my shield

I want to be a part of the lives you're building now

I love you both so much, if your hearts would just allow

It’s difficult to walk away and leave the book unread

When I see the fathers you've become, the faithful lives you've led

I know I have my flaws, and I know the road was rough

But isn't the grace you teach to others supposed to be enough?

I know you've drawn a line, I'm trying to accept it

But this chapter of my life, I just can't close and let it

Fade into the dark, without a chance to heal

I'm asking for forgiveness, I'm laying down my shield

Apply the Word you preach to the brokenness we share

I love you Tayler and Griffen, I will always be right here