Amanda

Eighteen years of wandering, fighting through the haze

Carrying the heavy weight of my darkest days

Lost inside the shadows of my father's pain

I let the guilt and the sorrow fall like rain

I was the black sheep, drifting far away

Tangled in the choices of my yesterday

I thought I was too broken, too far gone to save

But You were walking with me through the mess I made

I am not defined by the mistakes I've known

But by the Savior who never stopped calling me home

I thought I had to find the strength to reach out and see

But all along, Jesus, You were holding on to me

Neither death, nor life, nor the depths of the sea

Could ever separate Your holy love from me

I was a wanderer, weary and blind

But I was never forgotten, I was never left behind

December twenty-ninth became a brand new start

Stepping back into the water with a rescued heart

Washing off the ashes of the addiction and the fears

I am a redeemed daughter after all these years

Now I'm sharing Your grace with my grandbabies' eyes

Watching Your beauty paint the morning skies

Some family ties are broken, and I'm still healing the pain

But I'll keep on loving, trusting my prayers aren't in vain

I am not defined by the mistakes I've known

But by the Savior who never stopped calling me home

I thought I had to find the strength to reach out and see

But all along, Jesus, You were holding on to me

Neither death, nor life, nor the depths of the sea

Could ever separate Your holy love from me

I was a wanderer, weary and blind

But I was never forgotten, I was never left behind

My scars are a testimony, not a life sentence now

I'm learning to forgive myself as Your mercies allow

This isn't a song about how strong Amanda could be

It's a song about a faithful God who rescued me

My story isn't finished, the pages are still turning

With every breath I take, Your light in me is burning

I am not defined by the mistakes I've known

But by the Savior who never stopped calling me home

I thought I had to find the strength to reach out and see

But all along, Jesus, You were holding on to me

Neither angels, nor powers, nor the depths of the sea

Could ever separate Your holy love from me

I was the black sheep, but now I am free

Because all along, Lord, You were holding on to me