Thokozani Mtolo

I came into this world looking for your face

Hoping for a mother's touch, a quiet, safe embrace

But Thokozani Mtolo, the cold is all I’ve known

Right here in your presence, I have always felt alone

Since the very beginning, the warmth was hard to find

I’m searching for the reasons in the shadows of your mind

Oh, you are my mother, but the title feels so bare

I’m reaching out for comfort, but the feeling isn't there

Why is there such hurting? Why the anger in your tone?

Tell me why you left my spirit wandering on its own

I just want you to express it, lay the heavy burden down

Why did you withhold your love and leave me on the ground?

The shouting fills the hallways, a storm without a cause

I stand there in the silence, just waiting for a pause

I look into your eyes and try to see the grace

But distance is the only thing that I can ever trace

I’m carrying this sorrow, I’m praying to the Lord

To understand the weapon of your every spoken word

Oh, you are my mother, but the title feels so bare

I’m reaching out for comfort, but the feeling isn't there

Why is there such hurting? Why the anger in your tone?

Tell me why you left my spirit wandering on its own

I just want you to express it, lay the heavy burden down

Why did you withhold your love and leave me on the ground?

I don't want to fight you, I just need the truth

To heal the broken pieces of my lonely, shattered youth

Speak to me, Thokozani, let the honest story out

Tell me what the distance and the shouting is about

Lord, give her the courage to finally let it show

I need to hear the answer so my weary soul can grow

Oh, you are my mother, but the title feels so bare

I’m reaching out for comfort, but the feeling isn't there

Why is there such hurting? Why the anger in your tone?

Tell me why you left my spirit wandering on its own

I just want you to express it, lay the heavy burden down

Why did you withhold your love and leave me on the ground?