Ashley

I poured my heart into hands that only bruised

Searching for a real love I never really knew

Lost in the shadows of a chemical lie

I watched everything I cared about wither and die

I hit rock bottom on a cold, heavy floor

But I finally woke up, and I know I'm worth more

I have to fix myself before I fade away

I dragged you through the fire, but I'm changing today

I'm fighting the system to bring my boys home

You deserve a life where you never feel alone

I'm picking up the pieces, I know what I must do

I have to save myself so I can be there for you

I watch my firstborn, so amazing and smart

I see the bright spirit in my youngest boy's heart

Losing you both was the heaviest cost

A wake-up call for the years that we lost

It took me too long to step into the light

But before the time's gone, I am ready to fight

I have to fix myself before I fade away

I dragged you through the fire, but I'm changing today

I'm fighting the system to bring my boys home

You deserve a life where you never feel alone

I'm picking up the pieces, I know what I must do

I have to save myself so I can be there for you

Life has to offer so much more than the ache

More than the abuse and the cycles I break

No more being shattered over and over again

I'm finally finding Ashley beneath all the pain

I am fixing myself, I won't fade away

I dragged you through the fire, but I'm changing today

I'm fighting the system, I'm bringing you home

My beautiful boys, you will never be alone

I'm picking up the pieces, my heart is beating true

I'm taking back my life, and I'm coming back to you