Elijah

You were just a baby when I let you slip away

I didn't know how to hold the pain, so I numbed it every day

I missed your milestones, the boy you grew to be

I let addiction steal the mother inside of me

I'm sorry I didn't fight for you when things got rough

I'm sorry I ever made you feel like you weren't enough

Oh, Elijah, you've got a heart so wide

You let me back in, you stood right by my side

I had two years sober, then I stumbled in the dark

I'm terrified of breaking your resilient, forgiving heart

But I swear to you, this isn't where our story ends

I'm gonna fight with all I have to be your mom again

By the grace of God, you let me back into your life

You looked past the trauma, the sorrow, and the strife

You're strong and empathetic, you showed me so much grace

And it breaks my heart to bring a shadow to your face

I carry the guilt and the shame of my fall

Terrified of losing you, terrified of losing it all

Oh, Elijah, you've got a heart so wide

You let me back in, you stood right by my side

I had two years sober, then I stumbled in the dark

I'm terrified of breaking your resilient, forgiving heart

But I swear to you, this isn't where our story ends

I'm gonna fight with all I have to be your mom again

Addiction is a demon that is so hard to outrun

But I am not surrendering, I'm doing this for my son

I lost years I can't get back, but hear me when I say

You are so deeply loved, and I am fighting for today

I won't let this stumble be the final word we write

You are my reason, and you are worth the fight

Oh, Elijah, you've got a heart so wide

You let me back in, you stood right by my side

I had two years sober, then I stumbled in the dark

I'm terrified of breaking your resilient, forgiving heart

But I swear to you, this isn't where our story ends

I'm gonna fight with all I have to be your mom again

Yeah, I'm fighting with my everything to be your mom again