Chris

Before you, I was guarded, my walls were built high

But you softened my edges, you opened my sky

You changed how I spoke, made me gentle and deep

In those stolen little moments, you were all I'd keep

I craved your slow touch, just breathing your air

When you were pursuing, I knew you were there

But the days turned to distance, the distance to space

And the man that I fell for just faded from grace

Chris, you became the home to my heart

But the quiet between us is tearing me apart

I hung on your promises, waiting on the proof

While your actions kept running away from the truth

I love you so fiercely, and maybe I always will

But I'm choosing me now, 'cause the silence is too still

I have to stop breaking my own heart for you

We went from every day to staring at a screen

Waiting hours, waiting days, wondering what you mean

You'd send me sweet words, then leave me in the dark

Just crickets on the line, fading out the spark

This month carries weight, our baby was due

I'm drowning in the grief, and I'm drowning in you

You moved on in the quiet, no honest goodbye

Just left me in the shadows to figure out why

Chris, you became the home to my heart

But the quiet between us is tearing me apart

I hung on your promises, waiting on the proof

While your actions kept running away from the truth

I love you so fiercely, and maybe I always will

But I'm choosing me now, 'cause the silence is too still

I have to stop breaking my own heart for you

My heart still wants you, but my mind is so tired

Of the cycle of hope and the tears I have cried

I defended your distance more times than you know

But love starts to fade with nowhere to grow

You changed me forever, that much is true

But I can't keep waiting on a shadow of you

Chris, you became the home to my heart

But the quiet between us is tearing me apart

I hung on your promises, waiting on the proof

While your actions kept running away from the truth

I love you so fiercely, and maybe I always will

But I'm choosing me now, 'cause the silence is too still

I have to stop breaking my own heart for you

Yeah, I'm choosing me now, to stop breaking for you